Things
go on naturally ., but for me I'm upset because a series of my plans of the
situation did not go well. First and foremost, My plan to make a police blotter
and report about the "incident" doesn’t go as I planned to be and sad
to say that , making one is impossible right now due to technicalities and
probably incompetence on my sisters part. So defending myself or lodging a
formal complaint against Pumpman Carnaje on OSM Manila office is now impossible
because of Incompetence. I'm not going to go thru the details on why it failed
because recalling them and writing it here upsets me a lot, all because my
sisters incompetence.
So
what's going to happen is when if this issue gets brought up about the
incident, at the OSM Manila - I have no way of defending myself or showing
proof about Pump man Carnaje's lashing out and physically hitting me . I would just end up being a sitting duck
helpless. Aside from that my complain against him would be rendered useless
because I have no proof and it would only show that "I have
malicious" intent rather than seeking justice on what happened to me.
Another
setback I had been experiencing lately is my allegiance with O.S. Dalida., it's
true that he's somewhat sympathetic on my situation, however despite this ,
he's apparently reckless on mentioning sensitive topics and details in public
even though we already talked that those topics and issues can only be
discussed in privacy and closed doors to prevent leakage of information. There
is even one occasion that I have to tell him to drop the subject of our
discussion because Pump man Carnaje and O.S. Alvin is nearby and might hear our
discussion. He's not leaking information but his statements and joke in public
would hint and even imply on my intentions and sensitive detail. It’s really a
risk .
I
do trust him for being sympathetic , but not enough for me to divulge sensitive
information that it will put me at risk. So for now I won't mention sensitive
details and just stick on the general idea on what he already knows. I've
already risked myself too much .
In
other news.
This
morning at work I was approached discreetly by O.S. Alvin near the entrance of
the upper deck accommodation area and urged that I should apologize to Pump man
Carnaje to end it ., I didn’t said a word and kept quiet on what O.S. Alvin is
saying and just let him talk. Personally I'm not interested in his urging and
suggestion, and it would be best just to keep quiet , and don’t mutter anything
, or even answer their questions - aside from that they'd have a hard time
figuring out what's inside my head. Its best I speak less just to get me out
from harm's way especially to these kind of folks. I just deflected and avoided his urging and
simply changed the matter of subject we were talking.
For
me it’s a foolish decision to make an apology, and apologies for what ? For him
giving me insults , intimidations , bullying and harassment ?? I don’t think I
should apologizes on that for that matter for just simply standing up on his
bullying and harassment, I stood up and even got Physically harmed in the
process by smacking my head. So if Alvin thinks I'm the one who should be
giving an apology to Pumpman Carnaje , then he's gravely mistaken. I'd rather
spent the days of my contract not speaking and ignoring him rather than bow
down to his ego, it would only make me weak and not only that a laughing stock
on my cause.
Peace
is always ideal for a good working relation on the during of this contract,
However if peace means being a "booth licker" and bowing down against to what
I believe in, then id rather have a divided workplace, it's better that way .
As long as I don’t cause trouble or get it a little worse
