This
day marks my 3rd month onboard this ship. I had been for 3 months without any
cash advance, no shore leave and no official job order. Most of the time I
think, things are equally grim for me and that my stay and existence here are
uncertain. There threat of bullying and harassment is ever constant and the
same goes also on being fired on the spot and ruining the whole career.
If
this was just a land base job , I could easily solve the problems here of
bullying and harassment from pump man carnaje by simply going AWOL and let them
figure out the rest, on top of that the whole career as an employee will not be
ruined. Unfortunately no matter how I wish that would be the case, the
situation I'm here at the moment is problematic and persistent. For now my
stress , depression and anxiety levels are quiet high, So high that it affects
me on my day to day activities and compounded with harassment and bullying of
Pump man Carnaje. I though earlier that
things would be stable now and beyond but it proved me wrong that as long as
"job orders" are not secured for the next 5 months , Stability and
existence here will always be under constant threat.
Currently
tensions flare up again , although this time it's in directed at me. Apparently
Pumpman Carnajme is pressuring O.S. Dalida to leave me behind and stop giving
job orders. This came when , A.B. Jun told and snitched us to Pump man Carnaje
that the paint used in painting the chain was "hard top" type., This was false accusation and O.S. Dalida
himself opened the can of paint and the paint used was never
"hardtop" type . In any case the conversation dragged on until I was
brought on the subject , About my
presence in assisting O.S. Dalida on work. I never said a word on what I
overheard, and let O.S. dalida decide on his own on what he views in this matter.
The only I care of at that moment was that I have 2 and a half months left
before , I submit my "early vacation leave" and four months the least
to get the fuck off on this ship.
I
ignored them and just proceeded to painting the fire isolation valve,
unintentionally I mistook painting the foam valve., Good thing at that moment
O.S. Dalida returned and said that I was painting the wrong valve and
immediately corrected my mistake before going back to his previous work.
I spent the whole day painting the said fire
isolation valve. And was thinking that again I'm alone and will have deal with
my situation single handedly.
